The Good Life - Weezer
Help I’m at the end of mega man battle network 5 team colonel and I’m too weak to beat nebula grey. I don’t have any good chips. I’m so fucked.
I was debating going to see Slowdive since I hate driving to NYC but now that the tickets are sold out I regret not getting them
Nothing is worse than trying to go to sleep and having anxiety. I feel like my brain is always so racked with anxiety and intrusive thoughts I just can’t shut down and relax. It hurts when I think about what should have been good memories ruined by the anxiety I was going through at that time. I just want to be able to not feel constantly threatened by my own thoughts. It’s debilitating and exhausting and causes me to make mistakes at work and makes it hard to focus during school. I can only distract myself by exercising and playing video games but when I’m trying to sleep I can’t distract myself. I just try to breathe diaphragmatically and count down from 300. It’s frustrating because there’s seriously no reason for me to be this distressed. There is nothing wrong except the horrible purely obsessive OCD that likes to hijack my internal monologue and threatens my sanity by questioning if I’m a bad fucked up person who doesn’t deserve to be alive. I don’t want to be like this. I just want to be able to relax and be at peace in my own thoughts. I should probably see a psychiatrist. I was on lexapro for 5 years and I thought I was good enough to get off of it. After almost two years off if it I find the anxiety creeping back and threatening me.
I am embarrassingly bad at reasoning and logic. I probably shouldn’t have taken this “great ideas in mathematics: truth and reasoning” class :(
date a girl who is your girlfriend
America’s Next Top Model’ Cycle 21 makeover